Fix you

When you try your best and you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace 

When you love someone but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?
~Fix You, by Coldplay

Meh. Music. Sometimes I love it, sometimes I hate it. It's like food. I love it one day and the next I can't stand it. It helps me so much sometimes but makes me depressed/sick the next.

I cried on our dining room table today and no one was witness to my agony but my textbooks, the candlesticks, and the oversized wine glasses. The festive holiday tablecloth and my oversized sweatshirt  soaked up my tears. I'm relying on God to get me through this overly long week. Stress is overcoming. The strain is overwhelming. If I make it without breaking, it will be a miracle.


Even if a day feels too long
You feel like you can wait another one
You're slowly givin' up on everything
Love is gonna find you again

Love is gonna find you, you better be ready then

You been kneelin' in the dark for far too long
You've been waitin' for that spark, but it hasn't come
Well I'm callin' to you, please, get off the floor
A good heart will find you again

A good heart will find you, just be ready then

[Hook]
Tethered to a bird of sorrow
A voice that's buried in the hollow
You've given over to self-deceivin'
Your prostrate bowed would not be leavin'
You've squandered more than you could borrow
You've bet your joys on all tomorrows
For the hope of some returnin'
While everything around just burnin'

Come on, we gotta get out, get out of this mess we made
And still for all our talk, we're both so afraid
Well will we leave this up to chance, like we do everything?
Love is gonna find us again
Love is gonna find us, we gotta be ready then
~Bird of Sorrow, Glen Hansard